LL[Rough Draft]

Mandy was a beautiful girl with a smile that would pierce your mind
Eyes of golden sunshine, hair that was fine like wine
Kept it cool in situations that were heated,
Seated in the middle row of Chemistry class, when she felt a sudden urge
Her thoughts merged with attraction,
She fell victim to a girl, who had hair of gold strings, hips of a python
and eyes of a diamond
She was confused and alert, she never felt this way before
At home she laid down in her bed and closed the door
Stared at the ceiling and started thinking about her
Before she knew it, she wanted to hold that same girl she saw
Put her hands all over her skin, and gently run it down her spine
She slept and had fantasy’s hoping it was reality,
Woke up in cold sweats, sexually exhausted, breathing hard
Tossing and turning was applied and she felt like all of this was a lie
That the next morning this would all be a sick dream
She thought wrong, she still felt the same way, she looked in the mirror
Touching her entire body, wondering whats going on, trying to understand
Questions arise, “Am I going through a phase?” was the phrase that kept repeating,
Sitting in Chemistry class again, she was instantly locked on the same girl she thought of the entire night
She went up to her and befriended her, got to know her, her name was Ashley
Knew everything about her, found out she was Bi, found out that she was ashamed of her sexuality, ashamed to tell her friends about everything she was feeling, afraid to lose those friends she loved dearly
Mandy felt good, inside she wanted to keep this secret as the heart of her hope
Knowing that she ain’t alone,
At home she would be timid and quiet, changed her style.
She would soon subconsciously start to argue with her father about
Gay marriage
You see her father was a devoted catholic, believed that
Love was only between man and a woman, that love other than that was forsaken and forbidden
That what was written in the bible was set in stone, anything taken differently
Would burn with fire and brimstone
In the hells gates where “Fucking Gays” should burn.
She was just afraid to be honest, to be open with anything
Mandy and Ashley would come to grow fond of each other
Bond with each other, at nights she would sneak out
To be with her, Ashley told her that she “never felt so beautiful with her”
Mandy’s fingers gently massaged her hair out of Ashley’s view
Mandy leaned in for the kiss and gently plucked her lips onto hers
There love was secret in the public eye of there small town.
But when they were out, out of the city
They would walk by each others side, with hands gripped so hard that both of them would never let go
The world would scream, FUCKING GAYS
HOMOS,
ITS BETWEEN A MAN AND WOMAN, YOU BOTH ARE GOING TO HELL
Though they both looked like no words phased them, but there were going crazy inside.
Dying slowly inside but the love they had for each other was stronger than any word, that was thrown at them.
On the 4th of July Mandy went to sneak to Ashley’s house,
Where she would meet up and spend time.
They sat on a chrome truck in front of Ashley’s lawn
Mandy wanted to tell her how she feels inside how she wants to spend the rest of her life with her.
As the fireworks spread like a swarm of ducks migrating to the south,
Mandy saw the most beautiful star that outshined the firework
Mandy said Ashley baby I want to be with you till the day I die, till we depart and our hearts rot from the shallow lands of this earth
‘till the clouds birth a shine that drenches us with the light of an Angelic Halo.
Nobody will stop us and I want us to be together forever, like a feather in the sky.
You keep me elevated.
An engine roared…
Mandy’s father rolls up in a silver sedan, his eyes shocked and jaw broken open.
As he sees her daughter kiss another woman,
He screams, MANDY WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING.
You’re lesbian? HOW COULD YOU, YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.
You’re going to hell for this.
Mandy was struck with a sudden set of tears and terrified
Mandy clinched Ashley’s hand and whispered to her, I love you Ashley whatever happens please don’t forget us.
Mandy was pulled into the car, Mandy’s arm was slipping slowly off of Ashley’s body, tears shattered on the ground, the sound of both there cries were drowned out by the fireworks.
Mandy’s father looked at Ashley and said
“You fucking demon bitch, don’t you let your lesbian disease touch my daughters frail weak body or I will kill you myself”
Mandy yelled out another shout of desperation,
“I love you”
She was never seen again, she was sent to a mental ward in Kansas
Where they treated the “gays”.
Mandy would never forget Ashley.
And Ashley would never forget Mandy
Love is a powerful thing, it has no gender nor race nor a sexual preference.
Love is everything that we are, and we are everything love is.

Need ya Sole.

You’re eyes are curious, fingers so furious
Thoughts so serious, lips so voluptuous
I’m describing you in different ways possible
I can’t read you like an open book
But like a thesaurus
you’re a synonym of my vicodin
I can’t sleep without it cause I’m addicted to it.
Now look baby girl, you wrote me a poem
That was beautiful and artistic but I drew you in my dreams
And like every artist, they have there own masterpiece
You just complete the entire picture.
Your frame work cracks the Mona Lisa’s
While your color washes away the 16th chapel
You warm my soul like a bowl of Campbell’s
Words sensual like you dipped your blood in this timeless flow
Stole the clock just to lend you a hand, step foot in my world
And you wouldn’t wanna go back
Twirl you around like your curly hair while I position my hands on your curvy hips,
While I lift your chin up so I can get a shine from your diamond lips
Now you see I told you I’d return the favor and offer back my heart
I just hope when you read this.
You get the same type of body heat you gave me.
Cause you’re a fire that burns on my fluidic soul

Dark.

From dusk to dawn she was the one who saw me yawn
Light flashing through the lawn, grazing my skin
Wind flew through the gaps built in between the cracks
Lost my words like I misplaced my left brain
Lost all touch with reality no wonder I felt so numb all this time
As my mind rusts beneath my skull I need the oil of my tongue
To refresh my memory.
You see I’m a poet that overcomes adversity with each verse
Burry my insecurities in a coffin while my flow travels like a hearse
As it flows through the earth canal called the human ear
It’ll get absorbed through the orb of your mind as it is so coherent
fell in love with words, defined love with her verb.
Smoked the mind of a metaphor
while I made love to the body of a poem.
They say my voice gives the human physical form chills
I say I just let my voice rhyme down your mind
I lick the clip of a glock as I let the acid of my vocal chords melt the metal
Transform the melted metal into my mental
And that’s why you get the pitch darkness for which my brain contains.

Obsession

WARNING: This poem is not for the faint of heart


Brown hair and Mocha skin tone,
Eyes of a beauty, lips of a cutey
intellectual, she's intentional when she flaunts
Her name is Brenda, she's heading out of the office complex
After a long day of work she heads home alone,
Going to the parking lot, to her chrome sedan
A man hiding in one of the pillars, is being a predator
and she's the prey,
Nothing can save her, not even a short prayer
He puts his hand over her mouth
points the knife to a joint in her legs
He says "Calm down my little princess, it's all going to be over"
She's screaming but his palms are drowning the sound
He drops her to the ground for a short while,
she screams, "HELP!"
He elbows her to the face, with her ear lobe facing the ground
the sound is thump, and hes making his way to his duct tape,
takes a small strip, puts it over her lips, drags her body to the front seat
She wakes up, with rope around her wrists, hes driving to his house.
He says "Tonight were going to fuck like a spouse, I hope you don't squirm like a mouse
I promise I'll be gentle, sentimental, I'll give your mental a little rest, as I lick your breast
I'll be safe don't worry, please forgive me for doing this, promise me you won't tell"
He looks at her face, and her eyes widen like a yawn and shes mortified, horrified
He Screams, YOU PROMISE YOU LITTLE BITCH?
She nods in agreement, not knowing what to do.
They arrive after a 2 hour drive, he grabs her and throws her over his shoulder
walks to his door, and drops her on the floor.
He quickly switches his tone, turns brittle like stone, he says you little whore.
You give all the guys at work the flirt, but not me, I do things for you and notice you
but you choose to ignore, so I try to be sweeter then smores, but you're a bitch to the core
So I'm going to get my just deserts,
He approaches her, but shes squirming, and moving around giving him a hard time, still trying to scream but nothings helping.
He grabs a hammer and shatters both her knee caps, slaps her face with his bare hands, grabs her hair strands and ties it to the leg of his dinner table.
Dislocates her shoulders with his palms, immobilizing her.
So he breathes and says, you little cunt giving me extra work to do,
He rips the duct tape out of her mouth, she screams in agony, FUCK YOU, YOU SICK FUCK
THIS IS WHY YOU WILL NEVER FEEL THE WARMTH OF A WOMEN, YOU SICK FUCKER.
After tonight I will!, he laughs, she cringes, He rips off her dress shirt, pinches her tit, scrolls his fingers down between her legs, she screams in horror. Cries, "Is anyone out there to help me?"
No one, not even a soul, god doesn't give a shit about you, no one does, I'm gonna make your pussy fuss,
He unzips his pants, she pants, no chance in survival after this. Shes trying so hard to take it and let him finish what hes doing, close her eyes with tears squeezing out, and hes pushing and letting out a Uhhh, Yes, oh fuck. Shes saying stop please I beg of you, as he keeps pushin, I beg of you I'll give you everything I own, stop! Stop....

She died that night, with a bullet wound to the head, a knife through her wind pipe and two dislocated shoulders, broken knee caps, and a defiled body. The man who did this evil deed, drove a mile from his home, took his own life by swallowing razorblades. Bleeding to death with a picture of brenda and him attached to his hand.

See I'm not a fan of this nor do I condone any of it. I'm just telling you a story of a girl named Brenda.

Lightning.

Now before I unravel this poem, I hope you know
I appreciate your words, your mind, before your body
And in between these words my soul embodies
I hope my words can massage and rub your mind off whatever thats plaguing you.
My mind is mesmerized by your eyes, magical lips
That keeps me magnetized.
Your words are the main course and your beauty is the dessert
An Amazon Warrior, with the complexion of J Lo
Shine like a beautiful halo
Let me spit this flow, if a guy is physically attracted to you
Then I’m mentally attached with your words
A man who doesn’t see that, doesn’t deserve you
I scroll down your blog looking for gemstones
But to my surprise, I find diamonds and pearls
The type of shit you can’t clone,
When I need to get into the zone
I just step in your frontal lobe and load up
Your truly an inspiration, can’t breathe intellect cause you’re my respiration.
Now I know your thinkin’ I’m tryin’ to hit and split, spit and quit.
But I’m gonna be real and say, I’m quite inspired by your legit mind
Compared to my lines, I don’t think there will be any comparison with mine
Your ahead of my time,
Now if you don’t mind, I gotta finish off this rhyme with one line,
So yo, check it.
Yo Yo.
“You’re a magical beast that is a myth to us men, you’re a sin that’s so tempting, addictive like gin. You’re in your own category, you’re a different story, so I heard you’re an angel? Nah you’re a lightning bolt that doesn’t strike twice but once cause you’re one of a kind”

Inspired by http://jackieonassis.tumblr.com/

Our God

The rain transforms into bullets, hitting our shoulders
Head, chest, hands, and face.
In space, stars hang in the balance, as the light dances
Bounces off our eyes, the mortal soul sees the portal to a new world,
I shift my body to the left to follow a different stream
In my dreams I see countless amounts of doubts
You see I’m trying to find the journey and the quest
That contains a chest that holds all the gold
Heal the body, Massage the mind
Ease off on the stress, release your breath give your body room to breathe
Lush trees, illustrious rivers, Beautiful skies
Making all the diamonds in life break under pressure
Nothing is fresher than bathing in a pool of mother nature
Prophets now a days hand out pamphlets to simple minded fools
Who don’t understand a word that goes on in our schools
Mathematical equations are used to understand the words in the bible
People are tricked to drink kool aid for spiritual revival
But let’s keep it real, you don’t need to drink anything or figure out anything
You just gotta close your eyes and believe.
Perceive the deceived
Whether your Muslim, Jewish or Christian
You gotta understand please, that they teach all one thing
Love one another as you would love your maker.